I have been in Los Angeles for a year, and as much as I enjoy blogging… It is time for this blog to come to an end! I am now too busy, and so much going on that blogging has become a chore. This under taking was easier when I didn't have a life. LOL! I have to stay focused, and do what I came here to do. To find out more about me and what I am doing below are the many ways. Will my dreams come true? What will happen to J.R.? Thanks for your constant love and support!
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Monday, November 4, 2013
Monday, July 22, 2013
I Am Funny Dammit!
I moved to Los Angeles dreaming of being on Scandal, Grey's Anatomy, The Soap Operas, CSI, and all of those dramatic shows. My acting reel says that I am a dramatic actor, and all my life I have loved and connected to anything that is drama... I get off on releasing inner demons that are trapped in my soul. I love the art of being crazy, wounded, hurt, scarred, serious, serious serious....
My friend Tiffany Cooper-Allen once said to me I see you in a comedy. I laughed at her very loudly, and the laugh was so loud it was like a scream. The subtext was "No boo, No I am not funny".. Then my roommate, Dezera Page said I see you on the big band theory, or as the straight man in some comedy... I laughed yet again very loudly. My first manager said "you should do comedy"... I thought to myself, what is this stupid theme? I am a dramatic actor! I just met with this new management firm, that wouldn't even see me unless I did comedy. They said that is who I am, before even talking to me. WHAT??? I can cry at the drop of hat, and I love releasing my life experiences out onto the drama of some crazy character. When I read a dramatic script, my heart beats faster, my blood boils, and I get excited to dissect this person. Maybe being a dramatic actor all these years has been free therapy. Did you know that 80% of the work for someone my type is in comedy? I had no idea that I was more marketable as a comedic actor. I decided to dive into it, with my head first. What?? People are laughing at me? What my timing is good? HUH? I am not even trying, I am just living moment to moment. Why am I so funny? What is this thing that is happening? Why am I so scared of this genre? Now I embrace it, and I am loving it! BRING ON THE COMEDY! So many friends will say I told you so.... LOL But I will never leave the drama behind. I do my best when the work is honest, and when I tell the truth, comedic or dramatic, if you find truth, the work will always be good....
My friend Tiffany Cooper-Allen once said to me I see you in a comedy. I laughed at her very loudly, and the laugh was so loud it was like a scream. The subtext was "No boo, No I am not funny".. Then my roommate, Dezera Page said I see you on the big band theory, or as the straight man in some comedy... I laughed yet again very loudly. My first manager said "you should do comedy"... I thought to myself, what is this stupid theme? I am a dramatic actor! I just met with this new management firm, that wouldn't even see me unless I did comedy. They said that is who I am, before even talking to me. WHAT??? I can cry at the drop of hat, and I love releasing my life experiences out onto the drama of some crazy character. When I read a dramatic script, my heart beats faster, my blood boils, and I get excited to dissect this person. Maybe being a dramatic actor all these years has been free therapy. Did you know that 80% of the work for someone my type is in comedy? I had no idea that I was more marketable as a comedic actor. I decided to dive into it, with my head first. What?? People are laughing at me? What my timing is good? HUH? I am not even trying, I am just living moment to moment. Why am I so funny? What is this thing that is happening? Why am I so scared of this genre? Now I embrace it, and I am loving it! BRING ON THE COMEDY! So many friends will say I told you so.... LOL But I will never leave the drama behind. I do my best when the work is honest, and when I tell the truth, comedic or dramatic, if you find truth, the work will always be good....
Wednesday, June 12, 2013
All Over The Place Blog Entry #2
The Tony Awards
I was pleased with every bit of the Tony Awards, and it was a beautiful experience. Neil Patrick Harris was amazing as a host, and I loved every moment, beat, and nuance. He is so gifted, talented, and just a great personality. Really a well, put together show.... That opening number was so freaking Amazeballs!!! It was the best opening number on any award show that I have seen in my lifetime. Really a brilliant evening, and--yes--I put my ego aside and enjoyed watching all my friends perform on the telecast. The highlights of the Tony Awards for me was "Pippin" I am dying to see it! Those kids dancing hard/performing there heart out, in the musical "Matilda" WOW! Watching a friend, who went to my high school, grew up in my hometown, and whom I had the pleasure of gracing the stage with... Mr. Billy Porter winning his tony award for best actor, he did my hometown proud, and I am proud to say I know and love him! Lastly the legend Cicely Tyson finally winning her a tony award! YES! Inspired
General Hospital
I have been lucky to form a relationship with casting at "General Hospital", and I have been appearing on the show a ton. However, I truly think I screwed myself, with being new to town, and being desperate to be on t.v. (and making a coin) I feel my chances to actually be considered for a contract role are down the toilet. I keep appearing as a nurse in the hospital, sometimes featured, sometimes more then featured- two weeks as a principal- sometimes just walking back and forth. This blessing is my own curse, but I have to move forward. There are other soaps in LA to try and tackle. The experience there on G.H. is making me even more ready. I am clear to myself that I can handle a contract role, and know that I would be a great asset to a soap now. Now lets break down some doors! HUSTLE! Praise GOD for the opportunity and the learning experience... Coming To Terms
Networking
L.A. has taught me so much about networking, and I am actually building a pretty powerful and great Rolodex. I am learning the art of networking, and working so hard to meet as many people as possible. Passing out business cards, and trying my darndest to get noticed in this town. This part of L.A. is going well, and I have some great leads..... When asking a friend for help recently, I was nervous, but he said it best at the end of his email back to me. "A Closed Mouth Never Gets Fed"! I will take that with me, and thank you my dear friend, you know who you are, for helping a brotha out. Hopefully this contact will lead to something big, but I appreciate him putting in a word on my behalf! This touched my heart, and I am learning that it never hurts to ask.... Learning and Growing
Representation
I know so many people will judge me on this one, but I left my agency yet again in Los Angeles. I am sorry but I don't think my agent had enough to get me in the door. I am hustling my butt off, and everything I got was through my work effort. I also just didn't have a good feeling after awhile about my agency. I just moved to Los Angeles, and I already have went through two representations. Usually I would never leave anyone unless I had someone else. BUT I AM ALRIGHT WITH BEING ALONE FOR RIGHT NOW, OK-- HONESTLY I AM NOT, THAT IS WHY I AM TYPING THIS--BUT I HAVE TO TELL MYSELF THAT! I am stepping out on faith, and praying to GOD for the right fit. It is so "hard out here for a pimp"-LOL- an Agency is like being in a relationship. TRUST, GIVE, TAKE, UPS, DOWNS, ETC. I need to feel like we are on the same page, and honestly I wasn't with both my representation. If you believe in prayer, please pray for me. Pray that I find someone that loves what I do, and supports me. Pray that I find representation that can move me forward in the right direction. The search is back on blog world, PRAYERS PLEASE!!!!!!!
Trusting In God
My Big Surprise
I am yet again venturing behind the scenes on a project, and I think I am ready to announce it! I am so excited about this project, and I can't wait to start auditions at the end of July. This will be something new for me, but L.A. has been leading me more and more behind the scenes theatrical. I am listening to the universe, as the wind blows me in this direction. Oh you wanna know what the project is huh?
Well..... I will be the Assistant Director and Assistant Choreographer on "Smokey Joe's Cafe" at the prestigious Pasadena Playhouse! WOW! I said it out loud. This is a blessing and wouldn't be possible, but by the grace of GOD. I will be assisting the multi-talented director, singer, dancer, actor Jeffrey Polk. He is angel from the heavens who has been a great support to me and my move to Los Angeles. Jeffrey and I are going to put up a great show, I believe, and I think the work will be honest and powerful. If you are in LA you have to come check out the show!! If you are one of my talented friends in Los Angeles, I better see you at the auditions at the end of July. I am geeked for this project to start, and I can't believe that I got this gig, and my first time as a A.D. is at such a big, amazing, theater. HOLLA! LOL GOD IS GOOD.... Excitement and Change Is Good
I was pleased with every bit of the Tony Awards, and it was a beautiful experience. Neil Patrick Harris was amazing as a host, and I loved every moment, beat, and nuance. He is so gifted, talented, and just a great personality. Really a well, put together show.... That opening number was so freaking Amazeballs!!! It was the best opening number on any award show that I have seen in my lifetime. Really a brilliant evening, and--yes--I put my ego aside and enjoyed watching all my friends perform on the telecast. The highlights of the Tony Awards for me was "Pippin" I am dying to see it! Those kids dancing hard/performing there heart out, in the musical "Matilda" WOW! Watching a friend, who went to my high school, grew up in my hometown, and whom I had the pleasure of gracing the stage with... Mr. Billy Porter winning his tony award for best actor, he did my hometown proud, and I am proud to say I know and love him! Lastly the legend Cicely Tyson finally winning her a tony award! YES! Inspired
General Hospital
I have been lucky to form a relationship with casting at "General Hospital", and I have been appearing on the show a ton. However, I truly think I screwed myself, with being new to town, and being desperate to be on t.v. (and making a coin) I feel my chances to actually be considered for a contract role are down the toilet. I keep appearing as a nurse in the hospital, sometimes featured, sometimes more then featured- two weeks as a principal- sometimes just walking back and forth. This blessing is my own curse, but I have to move forward. There are other soaps in LA to try and tackle. The experience there on G.H. is making me even more ready. I am clear to myself that I can handle a contract role, and know that I would be a great asset to a soap now. Now lets break down some doors! HUSTLE! Praise GOD for the opportunity and the learning experience... Coming To Terms
Networking
L.A. has taught me so much about networking, and I am actually building a pretty powerful and great Rolodex. I am learning the art of networking, and working so hard to meet as many people as possible. Passing out business cards, and trying my darndest to get noticed in this town. This part of L.A. is going well, and I have some great leads..... When asking a friend for help recently, I was nervous, but he said it best at the end of his email back to me. "A Closed Mouth Never Gets Fed"! I will take that with me, and thank you my dear friend, you know who you are, for helping a brotha out. Hopefully this contact will lead to something big, but I appreciate him putting in a word on my behalf! This touched my heart, and I am learning that it never hurts to ask.... Learning and Growing
Representation
I know so many people will judge me on this one, but I left my agency yet again in Los Angeles. I am sorry but I don't think my agent had enough to get me in the door. I am hustling my butt off, and everything I got was through my work effort. I also just didn't have a good feeling after awhile about my agency. I just moved to Los Angeles, and I already have went through two representations. Usually I would never leave anyone unless I had someone else. BUT I AM ALRIGHT WITH BEING ALONE FOR RIGHT NOW, OK-- HONESTLY I AM NOT, THAT IS WHY I AM TYPING THIS--BUT I HAVE TO TELL MYSELF THAT! I am stepping out on faith, and praying to GOD for the right fit. It is so "hard out here for a pimp"-LOL- an Agency is like being in a relationship. TRUST, GIVE, TAKE, UPS, DOWNS, ETC. I need to feel like we are on the same page, and honestly I wasn't with both my representation. If you believe in prayer, please pray for me. Pray that I find someone that loves what I do, and supports me. Pray that I find representation that can move me forward in the right direction. The search is back on blog world, PRAYERS PLEASE!!!!!!!
Trusting In God
My Big Surprise
I am yet again venturing behind the scenes on a project, and I think I am ready to announce it! I am so excited about this project, and I can't wait to start auditions at the end of July. This will be something new for me, but L.A. has been leading me more and more behind the scenes theatrical. I am listening to the universe, as the wind blows me in this direction. Oh you wanna know what the project is huh?
Well..... I will be the Assistant Director and Assistant Choreographer on "Smokey Joe's Cafe" at the prestigious Pasadena Playhouse! WOW! I said it out loud. This is a blessing and wouldn't be possible, but by the grace of GOD. I will be assisting the multi-talented director, singer, dancer, actor Jeffrey Polk. He is angel from the heavens who has been a great support to me and my move to Los Angeles. Jeffrey and I are going to put up a great show, I believe, and I think the work will be honest and powerful. If you are in LA you have to come check out the show!! If you are one of my talented friends in Los Angeles, I better see you at the auditions at the end of July. I am geeked for this project to start, and I can't believe that I got this gig, and my first time as a A.D. is at such a big, amazing, theater. HOLLA! LOL GOD IS GOOD.... Excitement and Change Is Good
Saturday, May 18, 2013
All Over The Place Blog Entry
I have some really dark days, and some times I start to think I am too old. Questioned what am I doing wrong? Why can't I break down these doors? Why can't I be more black? Why can't I be more white? If I was just cuter? If I wouldn't eat all that junk food, and just got back in shape? If I could act better? If I was just a little taller? If I could walk backwards, do flips, swim, stand on my head, belch on cue, cry on cue, be in New York and LA at the same time? IF? IF? IF? Didn't I move to LA for "NO" should of--Could Of--Would OF? All the questions that many actors have... You loose your confidence at times.
On the other hand I have days where I am overly confident, when my faith is stronger then others, when I say to myself nothing can stop me. I just wanted to point out to my fellow bloggers that I am human. The dream can be tough, the dream can be daunting, but the dream can also be so rewarding. Loving what I do is my light at the end of the tunnel, passion, love, and walking with GOD, listening to the universe. All these things keep me steady, and keep me holding on to my dream. As said before statistic state that as an African American, Gay, 37 year old, man just moving to Los Angeles. I am not supposed to succeed. You know what I say? Kiss My Black Booty....
ENVY; The Tony Nominations came out and I had a ton of friends nominated for best actor, and best musical. I moved to Los Angeles to concentrate on film and T.V. I will be honest-- I admit my ego gets crushed when dreams of mine, happen to others. I LOVE my friends, and I am so excited for them, but I want it too.. All in GODS timing but I am writing this not for a pity party. I don't need to hear "your turn will come" or anything like that. I am just writing to get my feelings out and be honest in every moment. I want a TONY nomination, and the truth is.... I am no where close to one. That is just the bottom line...
Behind The Scenes; As I taught my dance class, and choreographed my first musical for the kids at the It Factor Theater. A new passion has rose up inside of me. I love to teach and to choreograph. I never saw this coming, it came out of left field. Then low and behold, right after my gig at the It Factor Theater, I choreographed a Bollywood esque number for a short film. I went into this project kicking and screaming. I had a ball working with those talented actors. The shoot went great and I can not wait to see the final product. New love sneaking up behind me, and patting me on the butt, and nudging me to follow it.
AUDITIONS; OK, either I need to work harder or something needs to happen. My audition season is slipping away, and I know the industry is slow until after the summer. However, I haven't had a TV/Film audition in forever. Praying on this situation, and I don't know what else to do, but attempt to be patient. Do I have the right agent? Do I have to switch up again? How do I know what to do? I will continue to walk with GOD, and ask him the tough questions. I have so many questions myself, and maybe I am just inpatient. Pray for me bloggers on this one.. I don't want to do anything drastic just yet...
IMDB gets on my nerves, I have been trying to post credits up on that site, and having no luck. :-( They need a knew system in getting your stuff up on that site. I have people that are extras with stuff on there, and I actually did principal contracts and can't get it up! UGH!
LOVE/Normal Job/Normal Life: This part of my life is in complete tact. I am happy in my romantic relationship, and very happy in my jobs. TVI has been great and I love mentoring my fellow actors. Don't Tell Mama Los Angeles is amazing. They have been promoting me like crazy i.e. radio show, facebook, twitter, website. Free promotion works for me, and I love getting to sing every night. The down fall is the hours, but it is still an awesome job! Happiness... I also am on tract financially although I do have some debt to pay off. Nevertheless, I am doing just swimmingly. BREWSTER-- My Dog and Baby is amazeballs as well... :-)
SURPRISE: I do have a surprise but I will not post about it yet. The gig is official and I am very excited about it. This job will be different for me, but an amazing opportunity at this point in my career. Stayed tuned blog world for this announcement, as I will announce it on my fan facebook page first.. Then wait a week and write about it on here. To follow me on Facebook here is the link; www.facebook.com/whittingtonjr
GOD IS GOOD AND ALWAYS ON TIME, EVERY TIME I GET DISCOURAGED, OR SOMETHING DOESN'T GO RIGHT... HE IS ALWAYS THERE WITH AN EXPLANATION. IT MIGHT BE ON HIS TIME, BUT HE ALWAYS SHOWS UP. I AM BLESSED WITH HIS GRACE, AND MERCY. SENDING HIS SON TO DIE FOR MY SINS, SO THAT I CAN LIVE THE BLESSED LIFE I HAVE NOW. I CAN'T PUT INTO WORDS HOW HAPPY I AM TO HAVE A FATHER TO ALWAYS TURN TO.... HE LOVES ME UNCONDITIONALLY. PRAISES TO GOD!
On the other hand I have days where I am overly confident, when my faith is stronger then others, when I say to myself nothing can stop me. I just wanted to point out to my fellow bloggers that I am human. The dream can be tough, the dream can be daunting, but the dream can also be so rewarding. Loving what I do is my light at the end of the tunnel, passion, love, and walking with GOD, listening to the universe. All these things keep me steady, and keep me holding on to my dream. As said before statistic state that as an African American, Gay, 37 year old, man just moving to Los Angeles. I am not supposed to succeed. You know what I say? Kiss My Black Booty....
ENVY; The Tony Nominations came out and I had a ton of friends nominated for best actor, and best musical. I moved to Los Angeles to concentrate on film and T.V. I will be honest-- I admit my ego gets crushed when dreams of mine, happen to others. I LOVE my friends, and I am so excited for them, but I want it too.. All in GODS timing but I am writing this not for a pity party. I don't need to hear "your turn will come" or anything like that. I am just writing to get my feelings out and be honest in every moment. I want a TONY nomination, and the truth is.... I am no where close to one. That is just the bottom line...
Behind The Scenes; As I taught my dance class, and choreographed my first musical for the kids at the It Factor Theater. A new passion has rose up inside of me. I love to teach and to choreograph. I never saw this coming, it came out of left field. Then low and behold, right after my gig at the It Factor Theater, I choreographed a Bollywood esque number for a short film. I went into this project kicking and screaming. I had a ball working with those talented actors. The shoot went great and I can not wait to see the final product. New love sneaking up behind me, and patting me on the butt, and nudging me to follow it.
AUDITIONS; OK, either I need to work harder or something needs to happen. My audition season is slipping away, and I know the industry is slow until after the summer. However, I haven't had a TV/Film audition in forever. Praying on this situation, and I don't know what else to do, but attempt to be patient. Do I have the right agent? Do I have to switch up again? How do I know what to do? I will continue to walk with GOD, and ask him the tough questions. I have so many questions myself, and maybe I am just inpatient. Pray for me bloggers on this one.. I don't want to do anything drastic just yet...
IMDB gets on my nerves, I have been trying to post credits up on that site, and having no luck. :-( They need a knew system in getting your stuff up on that site. I have people that are extras with stuff on there, and I actually did principal contracts and can't get it up! UGH!
LOVE/Normal Job/Normal Life: This part of my life is in complete tact. I am happy in my romantic relationship, and very happy in my jobs. TVI has been great and I love mentoring my fellow actors. Don't Tell Mama Los Angeles is amazing. They have been promoting me like crazy i.e. radio show, facebook, twitter, website. Free promotion works for me, and I love getting to sing every night. The down fall is the hours, but it is still an awesome job! Happiness... I also am on tract financially although I do have some debt to pay off. Nevertheless, I am doing just swimmingly. BREWSTER-- My Dog and Baby is amazeballs as well... :-)
SURPRISE: I do have a surprise but I will not post about it yet. The gig is official and I am very excited about it. This job will be different for me, but an amazing opportunity at this point in my career. Stayed tuned blog world for this announcement, as I will announce it on my fan facebook page first.. Then wait a week and write about it on here. To follow me on Facebook here is the link; www.facebook.com/whittingtonjr
GOD IS GOOD AND ALWAYS ON TIME, EVERY TIME I GET DISCOURAGED, OR SOMETHING DOESN'T GO RIGHT... HE IS ALWAYS THERE WITH AN EXPLANATION. IT MIGHT BE ON HIS TIME, BUT HE ALWAYS SHOWS UP. I AM BLESSED WITH HIS GRACE, AND MERCY. SENDING HIS SON TO DIE FOR MY SINS, SO THAT I CAN LIVE THE BLESSED LIFE I HAVE NOW. I CAN'T PUT INTO WORDS HOW HAPPY I AM TO HAVE A FATHER TO ALWAYS TURN TO.... HE LOVES ME UNCONDITIONALLY. PRAISES TO GOD!
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
I Work Hard For The Money!!!!
My time in LA has so many ups and downs, but I am still enjoying my time here. I do love the life style more then I do New York City. However, I am finally missing New York at times. It took awhile for me to miss the big bad apple, but the time has come. Can you believe I have been in LA for 7 months? Where does the time go????
My career is so so slow right now. I haven't been on a audition in a minute. Hence, the common theme in my last two blog post. Sorry... But it is good to vent to you guys... I started here so strong, and now in this time things have taken a halt, and my ego isn't ready for a halt. I am finding that LA is going to be a tougher nut to crack, then ever expected. However, in this time, like I said before I am trying to create and perfect my craft. I truly love what I do, (I sound like a broken record) and as I wait for GOD's timing, and for the casting world to even know I exist. Sometimes it is painful, it is hard, it can be daunting to stay positive, and even more hard to not want to give up. My emotions peak through my soul like a roller-coaster that has lost control and is racing all over the tracks. Continue to keep me in your prayers as I attempt to fight for what I love. Honestly the support I get from my readers keeps me moving, and I am not just saying this just to say it, I truly mean it from my heart. I THANK YOU.....
Many people have been wondering how I make money in the mean time... Trust I am working hard for the money, as I have three jobs. YES three jobs!!!! It is insane, but to support my lifestyle I have to have three jobs. This coming from a guy who has never had to work a "normal job" a day in his life. Cause I have been a working stage actor for years. Well, first and foremost, I teach a musical theater dance class in Burbank California to kids 8-15. This job touches my heart so much, as I love giving back, and watching my kids grow in the arts. I must admit I am a sensitive teacher, as I give my heart and soul to my students. And when they disrespect me, I get my feelings hurt. But I try to remember what it was like when I was kid, and a teen... Then I brush that feeling right off my shoulder. I truly love this job. Job number 2; I am a bartender and a singer at "Don't Tell Mama" Los Angeles. This piano bar is a fun night, and I enjoy this job too. Cause I get to sing, and use my vocal chops, so they don't get rusty in L.A. If you are ever here in LA, like my fan page; www.facebook.com/whittingtonjr to find out when I am at "Don't Tell Mama", and come in and visit me. I make great drinks, and I will serenade you... :-) Lastly, I work at T.V.I. acting studio as an acting consultant, and this job is not so shabby either, as I mentor students who become members of the studio. I also consult with them on what classes to take, and how to help them find an agent in this crazy business. It is ironic that I do this for people, as I am still trying to make it myself. However, it is great for me, because I love to help others on there journey in the arts. Hint/Plug... If you need to take casting director workshops, or some good acting classes hit me up... I AM the hook up!! :-) I do all this to survive, and on top of it, I try and live my own dreams. It can be hard not to forgot why I came here.... As I try to survive and make money. I am lucky though cause all three of my jobs are arts related. I AM BLESSED....
I have auditioned for some theater gigs, that I really want, and I will keep you posted if I book. I will also keep you posted when I don't book. Theater is my first love, and I crave to get back up on the stage at times. Keep me in your prayers friends, as I need them on this crazy journey.
My career is so so slow right now. I haven't been on a audition in a minute. Hence, the common theme in my last two blog post. Sorry... But it is good to vent to you guys... I started here so strong, and now in this time things have taken a halt, and my ego isn't ready for a halt. I am finding that LA is going to be a tougher nut to crack, then ever expected. However, in this time, like I said before I am trying to create and perfect my craft. I truly love what I do, (I sound like a broken record) and as I wait for GOD's timing, and for the casting world to even know I exist. Sometimes it is painful, it is hard, it can be daunting to stay positive, and even more hard to not want to give up. My emotions peak through my soul like a roller-coaster that has lost control and is racing all over the tracks. Continue to keep me in your prayers as I attempt to fight for what I love. Honestly the support I get from my readers keeps me moving, and I am not just saying this just to say it, I truly mean it from my heart. I THANK YOU.....
Many people have been wondering how I make money in the mean time... Trust I am working hard for the money, as I have three jobs. YES three jobs!!!! It is insane, but to support my lifestyle I have to have three jobs. This coming from a guy who has never had to work a "normal job" a day in his life. Cause I have been a working stage actor for years. Well, first and foremost, I teach a musical theater dance class in Burbank California to kids 8-15. This job touches my heart so much, as I love giving back, and watching my kids grow in the arts. I must admit I am a sensitive teacher, as I give my heart and soul to my students. And when they disrespect me, I get my feelings hurt. But I try to remember what it was like when I was kid, and a teen... Then I brush that feeling right off my shoulder. I truly love this job. Job number 2; I am a bartender and a singer at "Don't Tell Mama" Los Angeles. This piano bar is a fun night, and I enjoy this job too. Cause I get to sing, and use my vocal chops, so they don't get rusty in L.A. If you are ever here in LA, like my fan page; www.facebook.com/whittingtonjr to find out when I am at "Don't Tell Mama", and come in and visit me. I make great drinks, and I will serenade you... :-) Lastly, I work at T.V.I. acting studio as an acting consultant, and this job is not so shabby either, as I mentor students who become members of the studio. I also consult with them on what classes to take, and how to help them find an agent in this crazy business. It is ironic that I do this for people, as I am still trying to make it myself. However, it is great for me, because I love to help others on there journey in the arts. Hint/Plug... If you need to take casting director workshops, or some good acting classes hit me up... I AM the hook up!! :-) I do all this to survive, and on top of it, I try and live my own dreams. It can be hard not to forgot why I came here.... As I try to survive and make money. I am lucky though cause all three of my jobs are arts related. I AM BLESSED....
I have auditioned for some theater gigs, that I really want, and I will keep you posted if I book. I will also keep you posted when I don't book. Theater is my first love, and I crave to get back up on the stage at times. Keep me in your prayers friends, as I need them on this crazy journey.
Tuesday, April 9, 2013
The Down Down Down Time!!!
LA has become very interesting, as when I lived in New York City I auditioned a ton more then I do in Los Angeles. So when you get picked up for an audition here, you put so much pressure on yourself to do a perfect job. You have to nail it, and you obsess over the project. It feels so life or death, because it is so hard to get seen in this town. Learning to relax and not look desperate can be tricky when starting a new in LA. I can't wait until the casting folks know my name here in Los Angeles. My hustle has to be so strong in this town. While in New York the mentality is "Oh Well, I have six more auditions this week, so I can keep it moving, on to the next". This doesn't make me like New York more then LA, I am still here to give it a fair shot. However, I do yearn for more auditions in this industry. However, if you read all my other posts, you know exactly what I am up against. What I have learned to do in this down time, is to be creative. I am learning to create for myself, to write, to use my talents else where, until my big break comes. I recently started a new project with a friend (A Secret Project For Now) that I will call on my blog the "untitled project". I had my first meeting with him, and we came up with some good stuff. Getting my own production company off the ground, and putting our heads together to create this amazing vehicle that is perfect for the both of us. This untitled project--(if) WHEN produced and picked up-- would put our talents in a light that could never be imagined. Not to mention writing a story based out of truth, a story that you have never seen before.... Something new... This work session has rejuvenated me, and has put my mind in a huge spin! I am excited again, using this side of my brain, and putting my energy into something I believe in... This down time can be crucial as an actor, this is when folks lose faith, and give up. I am learning that for me this is when I can become more creative, and perfect my craft. Yes I want an audition NOW, but in the meantime, I am happy with waiting for GOD to present the right opportunity. While I wait, I will create...
Sunday, March 31, 2013
My Resurrection!
This is very interesting post, as I am about to get even more honest about who I am... As I had an unusual fear throughout my life, and a fear that has held me back. In this post I dug deep and searched for the truth, my desire to reveal my true self in the year 2013 has come to pass in full effect. I feel that me being honest is why people have loved reading my blog. The truth is; sometimes I am scared to post my religious beliefs on my page. Sometimes I get scared that people will think I am some crazy person, who is speaking mumbo jumbo GOD stuff all the time.... Sometimes I fear that people will think that I am trying to put my beliefs upon them. However, this is not the case, and I love people that have different belief system then my own. I declare today Sunday March 31, that I will no longer fear this.... As in many of my post I always talk about my faith in GOD. However, in true J.R. Whittington style, I am going to put away all fears. I will declare the good GOD has done for me. I will not stop talking about his grace, his mercy, and his devotion to me (and to all). I guess if you don't like this fact, you don't have to read my blog. I am a Christian, and this is who I am... Without GOD I know I wouldn't be where I am today. Without my faith, I would be in a ditch somewhere, due to panic attacks and a serious mental disorder. I know that GOD has saved my life, and as I go on my walk in this life, even while reaching for my dreams. I need to walk with GOD first, because honestly when I started doing this my life has changed. When I started to walk with GOD, my career grew stronger, and when my faith got stronger, my anxiety, and depression weaken. This acting business is tough, and to do what I am doing and thousand of other fellow actors are doing, takes a tremendous amount of courage, and faith. I know what my love for acting is, but I also know what my love for GOD is... From this day forth GOD will always come first, whether people want to hear or not. Thank you GOD for sending your son Jesus who died on the cross for my sins. Happy Resurrection Sunday Friends!!!
Monday, March 18, 2013
The Nurses Ball 2013
As many of you all know and if you follow my blog, you know I have been working on General Hospital. This year they have reinstated the nurses ball, as it is GH's 50th Anniversary. When I tell you to be careful what you pray for--and get specific with prayers-- cause they will come to light! I am strong believer in GOD and prayers. Well, I have been praying, and I prayed to GOD, being as direct as possible to get a principal contract on a soap opera. As I was sick of doing under 5s, (under 5, when you only say under 5 lines smallest role you can get) and I really feel this genre suits me, as a transition to t.v./film coming from my theater background. GOD gave me what I wanted.... YAY! He gave me a principal contract for two weeks on a soap. (Here is the catch) This principal contract was me singing and dancing. Whomp Whomp! I asked and I received, even though it didn't come in the package I wanted.... As I attempt to get away from singing and dancing, so I can be taking seriously as an actor, look where I end up... On television but back on the stage sort of... I am so grateful for the opportunity, and the fact that things are moving so fast for me here in LA, is a blessing...
With all of that said, my General Hospital experience was amazing. Going to work, being creative, being on set everyday, was a taste of a lifestyle that I want for my life. It was a big dream come true for me. Please watch the Nurses Ball the first week in April, and watch me and the soap stars perform! This years ball has so many fun surprises, and you guys are going to love it. It spans from three nights in April, but I am not sure of the dates. And two of the nights you will see my big high yellow face and dimples looking at you through your TV screen. It is some really good stuff, and I can't wait for the world to see it.
The cast of General Hospital was so welcoming and our director Larry was just spectacular to us. Everyone on set including the crew, and Emmy Winning executive producer Frank Valentini was on it... Frank is a strong presences as a producer, but he knows what he is doing. He is all about the work, but one of the sweetest people in the world. He and his team has put together something I think would be remembered forever, in General Hospital history. I have never worked with better people in my life. I have made so many new friends on that set, and it was a privilege and a blessing to be apart of General Hospital! Actors gave me there phone numbers, email address, it was like a family, they all wanted to keep in touch. That cast over there at the GH is something very special, and I thought people should know that.... I give thanks to casting director Gwen Hiller for always thinking of me, and keeping me employed in Los Angeles. I also a big shout out to Rick Pessagno the choreographer without him none of this would be possible.
When it all ended, of course my cry baby butt, teared up. This time I know why I cried.... I cried because this section of a dream came true abruptly has ended. I didn't want the magic and the feeling to ever end. I can't describe to you anymore how bad I want this thing... If passion can grow; mine has grown bigger and greater then ever expected. New prayer: GOD please give me a contract role for 4 years are more, as a speaking actor, as a principal, on a HIT T.V. Show. LOL is that specific enough!!!! At the end of the day, I am blessed and so very happy...
With all of that said, my General Hospital experience was amazing. Going to work, being creative, being on set everyday, was a taste of a lifestyle that I want for my life. It was a big dream come true for me. Please watch the Nurses Ball the first week in April, and watch me and the soap stars perform! This years ball has so many fun surprises, and you guys are going to love it. It spans from three nights in April, but I am not sure of the dates. And two of the nights you will see my big high yellow face and dimples looking at you through your TV screen. It is some really good stuff, and I can't wait for the world to see it.
The cast of General Hospital was so welcoming and our director Larry was just spectacular to us. Everyone on set including the crew, and Emmy Winning executive producer Frank Valentini was on it... Frank is a strong presences as a producer, but he knows what he is doing. He is all about the work, but one of the sweetest people in the world. He and his team has put together something I think would be remembered forever, in General Hospital history. I have never worked with better people in my life. I have made so many new friends on that set, and it was a privilege and a blessing to be apart of General Hospital! Actors gave me there phone numbers, email address, it was like a family, they all wanted to keep in touch. That cast over there at the GH is something very special, and I thought people should know that.... I give thanks to casting director Gwen Hiller for always thinking of me, and keeping me employed in Los Angeles. I also a big shout out to Rick Pessagno the choreographer without him none of this would be possible.
When it all ended, of course my cry baby butt, teared up. This time I know why I cried.... I cried because this section of a dream came true abruptly has ended. I didn't want the magic and the feeling to ever end. I can't describe to you anymore how bad I want this thing... If passion can grow; mine has grown bigger and greater then ever expected. New prayer: GOD please give me a contract role for 4 years are more, as a speaking actor, as a principal, on a HIT T.V. Show. LOL is that specific enough!!!! At the end of the day, I am blessed and so very happy...
Sunday, March 10, 2013
FEAR
The good news this week is that I am working on the soap General Hospital again, and gearing up to film "The Nurses Ball"! If you are a GH fan you know that it has been ten years since they filmed the nurses ball. I have been in rehearsals all this week for it, and there are some great surprises to come on the show! Can't wait until you guys get to tune in, and see all the fun we are having over in soap opera land.
The interesting thing about today is (As I try to stay honest with my feelings) is that I feel this pressure, anxiety, and sadness. It glommed over me all this morning. Why do I feel this way, when I am working, doing what I love and making money? Why do I have anxiety about life? I try to read books on how to live in the moment. I even attempt to block the future out of my head all together.... Am I afraid that I won't work again? Am I scared that when the fun ends, that I will back to struggling artist? Do I get sick of NOT of having a steady gig? Do I know what is promised tomorrow? This life of an actor, the ups and downs can stress a brotha out in a major way. It goes to show you that the confidence that you have read in other blog posts can come and go so fast. I am a human, and I am not who everyone thinks I am. In the midst of all this goodness, I still feel sadness. Today is just one of those days where my emotions are heightened. Tomorrow I start Deepak Chopra and Oprahs 21 days of meditation. I think this couldn't have come at a better time in my life. I think I need it now, and I am excited to explore this fairly new territory for me. The beautiful thing is that I know this feeling is about to change, as it is Sunday. I am about to go to church, praise GOD, and get some junk out of my soul, that is weighing down my spirit. The bible says "GOD has not giving us a spirit of fear, he is giving unto us a spirit of power, a spirit of peace and a sound mind"! I will take this with me as I go through my day today. All is good-- my tax return came in--I am working on a soap (YAY) making a nice coin for the week! However, I wanted to post my true feelings, as I know this all stems from my enemy FEAR himself.
The interesting thing about today is (As I try to stay honest with my feelings) is that I feel this pressure, anxiety, and sadness. It glommed over me all this morning. Why do I feel this way, when I am working, doing what I love and making money? Why do I have anxiety about life? I try to read books on how to live in the moment. I even attempt to block the future out of my head all together.... Am I afraid that I won't work again? Am I scared that when the fun ends, that I will back to struggling artist? Do I get sick of NOT of having a steady gig? Do I know what is promised tomorrow? This life of an actor, the ups and downs can stress a brotha out in a major way. It goes to show you that the confidence that you have read in other blog posts can come and go so fast. I am a human, and I am not who everyone thinks I am. In the midst of all this goodness, I still feel sadness. Today is just one of those days where my emotions are heightened. Tomorrow I start Deepak Chopra and Oprahs 21 days of meditation. I think this couldn't have come at a better time in my life. I think I need it now, and I am excited to explore this fairly new territory for me. The beautiful thing is that I know this feeling is about to change, as it is Sunday. I am about to go to church, praise GOD, and get some junk out of my soul, that is weighing down my spirit. The bible says "GOD has not giving us a spirit of fear, he is giving unto us a spirit of power, a spirit of peace and a sound mind"! I will take this with me as I go through my day today. All is good-- my tax return came in--I am working on a soap (YAY) making a nice coin for the week! However, I wanted to post my true feelings, as I know this all stems from my enemy FEAR himself.
Wednesday, March 6, 2013
I'm Just A Broadway Baby!
All through high school and college I was obsessed with musical theater. I listened to every single musical there was out there. I imitated voices on cast recordings, I took dance lesson, voice lessons, diction lessons, acting lessons, and studied my little tooshie off! I was--well--I am what you call a theater geek. I still love and live for the theater. I can't live without it actually, whether, I am in a production, listening to my theater mix on my iPad, or at the theater being entertained, I crave it. I always need to be close to it's touch. My dream was to do a national tour and broadway shows. I reached those dreams, and have had quite a career in the theater. The burning question is "Are you done with theater, now that you are focused on a t.v. and film career"? Even my agent wrote me saying "I would love to see you on Broadway again". The honest answer to this question is I would love to see me on Broadway again too. Broadway is my first love, and I will never let it go. However, there are some major rules to me and my love affair with the theater. I can't be in the chorus anymore, those chorus boy days are over. I also don't want to be a professional understudy, just like my resume makes me out to be. I will go home to Broadway if there is a role, a featured role, the lead calling my name. Until then, I am not interested. I would rather spend my time here in Los Angeles, being a starving artist, and going after my TV/Film dreams, then be in the background singing and dancing. I don't knock chorus members, it is a great job, and when I was there I loved it. No show is complete without a good chorus. I am just in a different place in my life. This might sound cocky to some, and it feels a little arrogant coming out of my mouth. Who am I to not want a job that people would die for? I ask myself that all the time. Honestly, it is the truth!!!! This blog is a space where I can tell the truth... right?. I believe if I am worthy enough to understudy people on broadway and save the show, as I have done many of times. I am worthy to play the role, and get out of my understudy trap. That is where I am in my career. Random Aside: I would love to do a non-musical play that is a dream that I have burning deep in my heart. Just throwing that into the universe, so GOD can hear! Deep down I am a broadway baby, who is in LA trying to make more dreams come true. As an actor, whether it's film, Television or Theater I simply love my profession. I am a person who is not chasing fame. I DON'T DO WHAT I DO FOR FAME AND FORTUNE! At the end of the day, I do it for love.
Monday, February 25, 2013
Stuck In The Web
2013 I am learning so many more trends, and sometimes I feel like an old man, because it is a new day as an actor. For instance, you don't have to print out pictures and resumes hardly anymore. The hard copy of your picture and resume barely exists, cause they already have everything they need from you via the web. This is great for my bank account, and I ain't complaining. IMDB Page, Actors Access, SAG J-Actor, Personal Web site, LAcasting, Twitter, Blog, Facebook, you tube....... The web is such an important part of the business and trying to keep up can be intense. Another popular trend on the east and west coast for actors, is the web series. People are actually being creative writing amazing pieces of work. The production value is pretty awesome as well, and some of the series I see are better then what is on t.v. A few web series have been picked up by major networks, and have become t.v. shows. Even celebrities have brilliant web series out there, that are funny, imaginative and poignant. I was recently listening to actress/comedian Niecy Nash speak at my church here in Los Angeles. Off the track; she is really an amazing women of Christ, and I learned a ton from this conversation. Back on track; she spoke on how proud she was of her web series, and how it is one the best things she has done. I actually follow two web series in my life, and I am proud to support them. I will leave there links at the bottom of the page, if you ever want to check them out for yourself.
I had an audition on Saturday morning for a new pilot for a web series. I submitted myself for it on the site LA Casting. Low and behold, I got an email saying they wanted to see me for the lead role of Julian. Skeptically I followed the web series trend, and committed myself, to joining the band wagon and I said "yes I would like to attend". It didn't hurt that it is a SAG new media paying job! Anyway, I got the sides to study my lines via email, and when reading the script, I actually found it quite funny. The writing was way better then expected. With a new pep in my step, and excitement in my spirit, fear stepped his evil head in... I was a little scared of the character as he is a little more effeminate then I want to play. However, I found the story in this scene very fun, and I went in to this venture head first. I did all my homework, which included beating the scene out, finding my objective, and going after my wants.... I slowly started to find fun moments, in the scene, and couldn't wait to read it with someone. GOD please let the reader be good. As acting is reacting, and it can be hard to react when the reader gives you nothing to react too, but sometimes you have to make it work. On the drive into the audition, I had my conversation with GOD, asking him to watch over me, and to lead me in the direction that is best for me. I get to the audition, dressed in American Apparel from head to toe, and I wore a cute little bow tie. As soon as I walked into the room, they commented on my clothes, and how great my shirt and tie was. Hey, I love to dress exactly the way I see the character in my head, it helps me with my work. I made them laugh a little with witty banter, and the director proceeded to give me a ton of direction before I started the reading. SCORE: The reader was an amazing actor, and gave me so much to work off of.... I was in a zone, and went into my character, and we played off each other amazingly. I had a ball, and the director said "WOW, you did that way better then I could even explain it". This brought a smile to my face, as I felt myself nail the scene. He asked me to do it again with a little more direction, and the second time, I played it the same, but took his notes, and heightened some moments with intensity. As I left the room, I felt great about my audition. Whether I get the part or not, I came to an even bigger realization, that I love acting more then I can put into words. Most people hate to get adjustments in a scene, as it throws them off. I welcomed every adjustment, and it fueled me with a fire in my body. Acting makes me so happy, and I pray that I get to continue to do it for a very long time. This is what I am born to do!!!!!! I have no idea who else they will see for that role, but I know I did my best....
Two web series to check out:
http://www.hustling.tv
This web series has adult content, but it is good, as my friend Sebastian La Cause wrote, and stars in it. Start with season one and go to season two. Have fun!
http://www.funnyordie.com/datesmates
This web series is new, funny- comedy, and only two episodes in, ENJOY. As two people that I did A Chorus Line on tour with star in this series; Julie Kotarides and Stephanie Gibson...
Monday, February 18, 2013
Big Decision!
My life was getting crazy, as I struggle a to find my "survival job" here in Los Angeles. It has been a tough journey to figure out what one is to do, when they spend there whole life a working actor. Then you are faced with a big bang, you are 37 years old, and you have no "real" job experience. People look at you like you are crazy at job interviews, as I sit wondering why can't I at least be a waiter, like every other actor. Yet in this economic time, it is a fight, and you need experience. The working actor is a blessing and a curse for me at the same time. This has been on my heart. Thank GOD I have some savings in my account, and I can make it through. Also, praising GOD that I am actually booking little t.v. things here and there, to help with the load of life... With this in my heart, and the search being on, I sometimes slumber into a deep depression. Where ice cream, my bed, the kisses from my dog, and singing depressing songs fill my void. However, the uplifting spirit of GOD seeps into my being, lifts me out of the bed, pounces out all my fears, and I stand up, with my heart open, happy to be me. Happy for my life, and blessed to have done all the things I have done... Even more blessed to get ready for what I am about to do. Always giving praise to my lord an savior, I know I am about to get past this mountain, and my breakthrough is around the corner.
The point of my story, and the big decision I needed prayers on, (as I posted on Facebook).... Well, remember my manager at Advanced Talent Management, Marcus Fishman, and how excited I was about him? I truly was thrilled, but I have to get honest, nothing has really happened. Did I expect something to happen in the four months we have been together? Not really anything major, but I didn't expect the contradictions, and excuses. Those who know me, know that at times I can be brutally honest. I expect folks to be brutally honest with me at all times. Before I move forward with this paragraph, I will state, that Marcus Fishman is a very nice man, who knows a ton about the business, and I truly believe he was working hard on my behalf. A couple things happened that made me wonder about him though, as when I first met him, he said "I have great connections with agents, and commercial agents". Well, now that things are slow for me I think I should at least be going out for commercials to make a coin. He said "I don't think you are a commercial actor"! "Huh"? I mumbled, as he said the exact opposite thing to me when we first met. I also asked him about meeting a agent, and he said "Not with your resume", "You are not ready to meet an agent". That part I could understand to an extent, as my t.v./film credits are not as nearly as good as my theater credits. This statement still didn't go with our initial conversation either. Lastly, when he dropped the ball on the hit C.W. show audition, and I called him and told him "We have an audition", and he answered the phone confused, really pissed me off. Never in my 17 years in the business have I ever called an agent/manager to tell them about an audition, that they submitted me for, they always called me! I started to re-consider Marcus, and debated on leaving him with no representation at all. The other thing is all the little t.v. gigs I booked, I have booked on my own from knowing someone, and being persistent in the business. Not to mention on the non-submission for "soft" roles as he put it. I also wasn't a fan of the way he spoke to me and casting directors, like we were kids, and very entitled. I prayed, so hard about him and what to do. Right when I was about to give up hope, an agent called me, and said "I got your reel and resume and would love to meet with you". For those of you who don't believe in GOD, you truly need to, because I have tons of testimonies like this one. The meeting with this agent went so great. She got me, and understood my plight. She has a great track record, and I did my research on her, and it just felt like a good fit. She comes from a theater background so understands my talent, and what I am up against in the film world. The energy between us was great, but then again fear, set up inside of me. My meeting with Marcus went great at first, what if I end up in the same situation? What if I sign with this new agent, and she is worse then Marcus? What if I need to give Marcus more of a chance? What am I supposed to do? So many emotions wrapped up inside of stomach, made anxiety aspirate. I struggled with a answer, asking friends, praying, asking GOD, asking for signs, confused, lost, back and forth, tossing and turning in my sleep! I woke up one morning, and put my hand to my heart. I closed my eyes for a while and just listened to the pulse and the beat. I asked GOD yet again for a sign. I still got nothing, but as I listened to my hearts pulse, my instinct, my spirit, my gut, my soul said "Move on, and sign with this new agent". So I did just that, but first I needed to get rid of Advanced Talent Management. I called Marcus, and told him that we weren't working out and he asked me "why"? I explained all the contradictions that took place in our relationship with him. He let me out of my contract, and I left on good terms. He said to me "you are a very nice guy, and so talented, if you need anything don't hesitate to call me". The weird, thing is, I feel the same about him. He never meant any malice, and he was doing his best for me. His best just wasn't good enough. He was scared of my sexuality, he dropped the ball, and contradicted himself a ton. Marcus is a manager for a reason, and he has clients with much success. He just wasn't the right fit for me, finding your fit, can be daunting at times. When I hung up the phone, with Marcus, I cried.... I still can't figure out why I cried, but I did... I cried for awhile, as if it was a break up from a marriage. This cry could have come from the stress of LA, stress of being jobless, stress of losing a manager, or the happiness of moving forward. Who Knows? Today, I feel amazing about my decision, and now I have to move forward with this new agent, who I love thus far..... Who knows the future? But I pray I made the right decision, and that my career will move forward for the better... My new agent is British, and she is so amazing. So easy to talk to, and I am already enjoying her brutal honesty. My favorite quote from my new agent is "This is me, I am not acting, nor am I an actor, this is who I am, and what you get"! We shall see blog friends, my life here is just beginning...
The point of my story, and the big decision I needed prayers on, (as I posted on Facebook).... Well, remember my manager at Advanced Talent Management, Marcus Fishman, and how excited I was about him? I truly was thrilled, but I have to get honest, nothing has really happened. Did I expect something to happen in the four months we have been together? Not really anything major, but I didn't expect the contradictions, and excuses. Those who know me, know that at times I can be brutally honest. I expect folks to be brutally honest with me at all times. Before I move forward with this paragraph, I will state, that Marcus Fishman is a very nice man, who knows a ton about the business, and I truly believe he was working hard on my behalf. A couple things happened that made me wonder about him though, as when I first met him, he said "I have great connections with agents, and commercial agents". Well, now that things are slow for me I think I should at least be going out for commercials to make a coin. He said "I don't think you are a commercial actor"! "Huh"? I mumbled, as he said the exact opposite thing to me when we first met. I also asked him about meeting a agent, and he said "Not with your resume", "You are not ready to meet an agent". That part I could understand to an extent, as my t.v./film credits are not as nearly as good as my theater credits. This statement still didn't go with our initial conversation either. Lastly, when he dropped the ball on the hit C.W. show audition, and I called him and told him "We have an audition", and he answered the phone confused, really pissed me off. Never in my 17 years in the business have I ever called an agent/manager to tell them about an audition, that they submitted me for, they always called me! I started to re-consider Marcus, and debated on leaving him with no representation at all. The other thing is all the little t.v. gigs I booked, I have booked on my own from knowing someone, and being persistent in the business. Not to mention on the non-submission for "soft" roles as he put it. I also wasn't a fan of the way he spoke to me and casting directors, like we were kids, and very entitled. I prayed, so hard about him and what to do. Right when I was about to give up hope, an agent called me, and said "I got your reel and resume and would love to meet with you". For those of you who don't believe in GOD, you truly need to, because I have tons of testimonies like this one. The meeting with this agent went so great. She got me, and understood my plight. She has a great track record, and I did my research on her, and it just felt like a good fit. She comes from a theater background so understands my talent, and what I am up against in the film world. The energy between us was great, but then again fear, set up inside of me. My meeting with Marcus went great at first, what if I end up in the same situation? What if I sign with this new agent, and she is worse then Marcus? What if I need to give Marcus more of a chance? What am I supposed to do? So many emotions wrapped up inside of stomach, made anxiety aspirate. I struggled with a answer, asking friends, praying, asking GOD, asking for signs, confused, lost, back and forth, tossing and turning in my sleep! I woke up one morning, and put my hand to my heart. I closed my eyes for a while and just listened to the pulse and the beat. I asked GOD yet again for a sign. I still got nothing, but as I listened to my hearts pulse, my instinct, my spirit, my gut, my soul said "Move on, and sign with this new agent". So I did just that, but first I needed to get rid of Advanced Talent Management. I called Marcus, and told him that we weren't working out and he asked me "why"? I explained all the contradictions that took place in our relationship with him. He let me out of my contract, and I left on good terms. He said to me "you are a very nice guy, and so talented, if you need anything don't hesitate to call me". The weird, thing is, I feel the same about him. He never meant any malice, and he was doing his best for me. His best just wasn't good enough. He was scared of my sexuality, he dropped the ball, and contradicted himself a ton. Marcus is a manager for a reason, and he has clients with much success. He just wasn't the right fit for me, finding your fit, can be daunting at times. When I hung up the phone, with Marcus, I cried.... I still can't figure out why I cried, but I did... I cried for awhile, as if it was a break up from a marriage. This cry could have come from the stress of LA, stress of being jobless, stress of losing a manager, or the happiness of moving forward. Who Knows? Today, I feel amazing about my decision, and now I have to move forward with this new agent, who I love thus far..... Who knows the future? But I pray I made the right decision, and that my career will move forward for the better... My new agent is British, and she is so amazing. So easy to talk to, and I am already enjoying her brutal honesty. My favorite quote from my new agent is "This is me, I am not acting, nor am I an actor, this is who I am, and what you get"! We shall see blog friends, my life here is just beginning...
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
Do You Have A Star Meter?
In my quest to understand Los Angeles, and the process of getting noticed in this town. I came across casting trends, that don't trend in New York City. Learning there is truth when people say, "It is all about who you know, and LA is a popularity contest". I have heard many people say those words to me, but part of me never believed it. My manager even said to me in so many words "If you were hot, and blonde, you wouldn't even need a resume, they would just call you in". CRACK, CRACK goes my face. When in New York City, if you have the talent, you book the gig. Not that this doesn't happen in Los Angeles, yes you must have talent, but you have to network, and have a high star meter. This is not always the case, but it is a big part of LA LA LAND. Ummm, what the heck is a star meter? Well, the explanation to this will come shortly.... FYI my star meter is extra low, and I need to bring it up fast!
Imagine you are a casting director, and you put out a breakdown notice that states. Casting: African American Male or Mixed Race Male, intelligent, handsome, with a mysterious dark secret, for new Hit CW T.V. Show... If you were me, your manager would submit you for this project immediately. However, (you) the casting director got about 2000 people that submit for this project. How do you chose out of the 2,000 people? Who do you call in for the audition???? Do you call in the people that look the part, have training, and a resume? Do you look at the actors reel? Or do you call people that you know, and people with a high star meter? Most, not all casting directors-so I am told- call in people they know, and folks with a great star meter. Then there is me the dreamer, who thinks because I have a good look, and some talent, with Broadway credits, and some t.v. on my resume, that I will get called in.... WRONG!
I have to do the very thing I hate, and get my butt out there and network. I have to meet these people, smile, and pray that they like me. In Los Angeles they have many casting director workshops, where you pay money, to do monologues and scenes for these casting directors. Which I am willing to do, but this gets very expensive, so I can't do it all the time. I need to go to parties, openings, industry events, to get my big face out there. I got my business cards, and now I have to use them. This is my challenge, as I feel like I am kissing butt, and I don't want to kiss butt. HA! Hustle, hustle, hustle, hustle, here I go as I work on the business part of the show.
Star meter??? Are you still confused, well, maybe you aren't, but I sure was when I heard these words. Friends in LA would speak to me about there star meter, and my manager sent me links on how to get my star meter up. Where do I find this star meter? Who decides whether it is high or low? I am so confused??? To get my star meter up I have to have people visit my IMDB page, and just view it. The more views I have, the higher my star meter. Sometimes casting directors will go to your IMDB and look at your star meter, and that will help them decide whether to call you in or not. PROBLEM, I have two IMDB pages, as I started my career as James R. Whittington, and later became J.R. Whittington. Now I had to write them to sync my pages, which is in the works. Then I need to pay 15 bucks a month, to become a member of IMDB pro, so I can put up my headshots, reel, and just hook up the page. Once it is hooked up to my liking, I will be shamelessly posting my IMDB page link on Facebook, and twitter, so I can get a star meter. A friend emailed me and said "GOD didn't create the world in one day, it took him seven, so relax".... Thanks TRACY! :-) This made me calm down.... My faith in GOD has kept me positive, and that out pouring of support and love I get from the blog world, and from my friends. All of this keeps my heart pulsing, not to mention the love I have for acting, the love I have to perform, the feeling I have to get my love. With GOD all things are possible..
Imagine you are a casting director, and you put out a breakdown notice that states. Casting: African American Male or Mixed Race Male, intelligent, handsome, with a mysterious dark secret, for new Hit CW T.V. Show... If you were me, your manager would submit you for this project immediately. However, (you) the casting director got about 2000 people that submit for this project. How do you chose out of the 2,000 people? Who do you call in for the audition???? Do you call in the people that look the part, have training, and a resume? Do you look at the actors reel? Or do you call people that you know, and people with a high star meter? Most, not all casting directors-so I am told- call in people they know, and folks with a great star meter. Then there is me the dreamer, who thinks because I have a good look, and some talent, with Broadway credits, and some t.v. on my resume, that I will get called in.... WRONG!
I have to do the very thing I hate, and get my butt out there and network. I have to meet these people, smile, and pray that they like me. In Los Angeles they have many casting director workshops, where you pay money, to do monologues and scenes for these casting directors. Which I am willing to do, but this gets very expensive, so I can't do it all the time. I need to go to parties, openings, industry events, to get my big face out there. I got my business cards, and now I have to use them. This is my challenge, as I feel like I am kissing butt, and I don't want to kiss butt. HA! Hustle, hustle, hustle, hustle, here I go as I work on the business part of the show.
Star meter??? Are you still confused, well, maybe you aren't, but I sure was when I heard these words. Friends in LA would speak to me about there star meter, and my manager sent me links on how to get my star meter up. Where do I find this star meter? Who decides whether it is high or low? I am so confused??? To get my star meter up I have to have people visit my IMDB page, and just view it. The more views I have, the higher my star meter. Sometimes casting directors will go to your IMDB and look at your star meter, and that will help them decide whether to call you in or not. PROBLEM, I have two IMDB pages, as I started my career as James R. Whittington, and later became J.R. Whittington. Now I had to write them to sync my pages, which is in the works. Then I need to pay 15 bucks a month, to become a member of IMDB pro, so I can put up my headshots, reel, and just hook up the page. Once it is hooked up to my liking, I will be shamelessly posting my IMDB page link on Facebook, and twitter, so I can get a star meter. A friend emailed me and said "GOD didn't create the world in one day, it took him seven, so relax".... Thanks TRACY! :-) This made me calm down.... My faith in GOD has kept me positive, and that out pouring of support and love I get from the blog world, and from my friends. All of this keeps my heart pulsing, not to mention the love I have for acting, the love I have to perform, the feeling I have to get my love. With GOD all things are possible..
Monday, February 4, 2013
The Audition Nightmare
I was on the set of General Hospital, doing a very small spot on the soap. It was a great day actually, and I had fun on that set. I realized while I was there, that I truly want to do a soap. The atmosphere was theatrical, and the life style seemed like a ton of work, but a great training ground for an actor who wants to start his career. They work at such a fast pace, and it was interesting to be a part of the process. I was in awe at the work they produce on a soap from a day to day basis. Fun energy on the set, and the cast/crew was professional and very kind. Oh, and I got to make out with one of the lead actresses, that was awkward. As I shook her hand and said "hi I am J.R.", about three seconds later I heard the words "sound speed" and "Action". Next thing I know I was thrusted into a make out scene that I didn't even know was coming. Well, the beauty of being on a soap. From your lips to Gods ears, let's put in the universe that the next time I am on a soap, I will be a contract role. :-)
Now to the theme of this post, sorry blog world as I get distracted by the excitement of being a working actor. OK, so while I was heading home from being wrapped from soap land, in my car jamming to some music, at about 12:30 pm, I received a email. I couldn't check it, but I saw it was from actors access. For those who don't know actors access is the site, that holds all the actors breakdowns so your agent/manager can submit you for projects. Anyway, I rushed home in my car, with excitement of this could be a great audition just waiting in my inbox. I couldn't wait to see what it is was so the drive home was a bit of a blur... Not even taking off my shoes, petting my dog swiftly, I run straight to my macbook air, to check my email. SCORE, it was for a co-starring role on a major t.v. show for the C.W. YAY! But? What? Huh? Wait... the audition is in an hour. Why didn't my manager call me? Why am I just getting this now? Without thinking I started getting dressed, but not knowing what the character even was, I freaked out for a bit. I called my manager, "Hey, Marcus, I got an email, we got an audition"! He sounded confused on the phone... He put me on hold for a minute, and said "Oh yes we do". "Ok" I said, "but why am I just hearing about this now"? He says "We just got it", and he was going to call them for me to see if he can push the time back so I a can make it. He called them for me, they pushed the time back by 30 minutes, and they sent over the character description and sides. You see I can't get dressed until I know what I am going in for, as it is important for me to dress like the character. As I want to walk in the room looking like I am this part, and that there is no if, ands, or buts, about this.... Well it was for an African American, snotty, chef, in his thirties--I got this I thought to myself-- the character had to have a perfect french accent! Rewind.... A what? A french accent, yes, I read this correctly. I get an audition for the C.W. (which is perfect for me), but he has to have a freaking french accent!!! I need to drive there, cold read, and be prepared with a french accent in the next 45 minutes. I started to panic, as I love to audition, and want to go in there and show them all this talent I have inside of me. I took a deep breathe, printed out the sides, got dressed, and started to walk out of the door. As I read the script, I realized there were some words I couldn't pronounce correctly. So I called my manager, yet again, and he connected me to a girl who is a french teacher to go over these words. As I spoke to her, I slowed down, and thought hard. Not only to cut off this nice lady, but hang up the phone with her abruptly. Then to call my manager and say "I am not going". Marcus said "What, you know how hard it is to get an audition"? I said "Yes I do, but I refuse, to go in for a t.v. show that I am perfect for, and be unprepared with a hideous french accent. Mind you if this dude was to speak with a British, New York, Puerto Rican or Southern dialect I would have went. As those are accents I have in my back pocket. But NO HE HAD TO BE FRENCH! When I go in for something I want to be actually right for the part, and be prepared. I don't want this casting director to put me on her/his list of people to never call in again, because she/he thinks I can't act. NO WAY! I had to do what I thought was best. I have to trust in GOD, that more auditions will come. Auditions without a french accent, auditions that will fit me like a glove. I turned down this audition, and it makes me sad. But there will hopefully be many more to come.....
Now to the theme of this post, sorry blog world as I get distracted by the excitement of being a working actor. OK, so while I was heading home from being wrapped from soap land, in my car jamming to some music, at about 12:30 pm, I received a email. I couldn't check it, but I saw it was from actors access. For those who don't know actors access is the site, that holds all the actors breakdowns so your agent/manager can submit you for projects. Anyway, I rushed home in my car, with excitement of this could be a great audition just waiting in my inbox. I couldn't wait to see what it is was so the drive home was a bit of a blur... Not even taking off my shoes, petting my dog swiftly, I run straight to my macbook air, to check my email. SCORE, it was for a co-starring role on a major t.v. show for the C.W. YAY! But? What? Huh? Wait... the audition is in an hour. Why didn't my manager call me? Why am I just getting this now? Without thinking I started getting dressed, but not knowing what the character even was, I freaked out for a bit. I called my manager, "Hey, Marcus, I got an email, we got an audition"! He sounded confused on the phone... He put me on hold for a minute, and said "Oh yes we do". "Ok" I said, "but why am I just hearing about this now"? He says "We just got it", and he was going to call them for me to see if he can push the time back so I a can make it. He called them for me, they pushed the time back by 30 minutes, and they sent over the character description and sides. You see I can't get dressed until I know what I am going in for, as it is important for me to dress like the character. As I want to walk in the room looking like I am this part, and that there is no if, ands, or buts, about this.... Well it was for an African American, snotty, chef, in his thirties--I got this I thought to myself-- the character had to have a perfect french accent! Rewind.... A what? A french accent, yes, I read this correctly. I get an audition for the C.W. (which is perfect for me), but he has to have a freaking french accent!!! I need to drive there, cold read, and be prepared with a french accent in the next 45 minutes. I started to panic, as I love to audition, and want to go in there and show them all this talent I have inside of me. I took a deep breathe, printed out the sides, got dressed, and started to walk out of the door. As I read the script, I realized there were some words I couldn't pronounce correctly. So I called my manager, yet again, and he connected me to a girl who is a french teacher to go over these words. As I spoke to her, I slowed down, and thought hard. Not only to cut off this nice lady, but hang up the phone with her abruptly. Then to call my manager and say "I am not going". Marcus said "What, you know how hard it is to get an audition"? I said "Yes I do, but I refuse, to go in for a t.v. show that I am perfect for, and be unprepared with a hideous french accent. Mind you if this dude was to speak with a British, New York, Puerto Rican or Southern dialect I would have went. As those are accents I have in my back pocket. But NO HE HAD TO BE FRENCH! When I go in for something I want to be actually right for the part, and be prepared. I don't want this casting director to put me on her/his list of people to never call in again, because she/he thinks I can't act. NO WAY! I had to do what I thought was best. I have to trust in GOD, that more auditions will come. Auditions without a french accent, auditions that will fit me like a glove. I turned down this audition, and it makes me sad. But there will hopefully be many more to come.....
Wednesday, January 30, 2013
Up Against All Odds
This post will be the most honest, and probably the hardest thing I will ever right in my life. This is the honest to GOD truth about me, and what I am up against here in LA LA Land (As I Call it)! First of all, a ton of folks told me when I first started my career, "DO NOT move to New York City". "You will never make it, on Broadway". "Too many people in that industry". My Aunt Brenda said "Your mother needs your help, you are the man of the house, maybe you should stop performing". I remember being so hurt, and upset. Now as I look back, I chuckle, I love my aunt, but oh how wrong she was, and it is funny to hear her brag about her Broadway nephew. I didn't listen then, and I am not listening now. I am following my heart, and my passion. Everything about my move to LA statistically speaking says it won't work out. Everything in my core, gut, sole, says I am going to thrive in this town, and my dreams will happen.
My manager brought me into his office, to show me the breakdowns, and what he gets from week to week. Did you know that in the actors breakdowns that come out weekly, that most the job descriptions is Caucasian male? I scrolled through about 80 posts in the breakdowns for actors. I found a total of 10 jobs for an African American Male, and even less for women, and less for Asian or Hispanic people. WOW! Reality check right there. Contrary to most peoples beliefs, Many friends have said to me, "It is easier when you are ethnic"! WRONG! WRONG! WRONG! We might have less competition, but we still in the year 2013 have way less work. My manager proved this fact to me. Which means, I might be waiting a long time for my dream gig to come true.....
Then there is the fact that I not only look African American, that I am a mixed male. This is just like New York City, some projects I wasn't black enough to be in... (for example Hairspray).. Some times this worked in my favor. I played a Puerto Rican, and even making my Broadway debut playing Indian in "Bombay Dreams". Most times I was rejected because not Latin enough, not black enough, not mixed enough. This problem is world wide though, every actor goes through this, but I feel it is heightened in my case. It would depend on the project, trying to find out where I fit in, because of the complexion of my skin. Interesting huh? In film it is even worse, cause the camera is in your face, and you have to read that race asap. BUT I AM A BLACK BOY! I PROMISE! :-)
My age continues to come up in this town, and the fact that I am not a very young man. Yes, this sets me back even more. To move to LA at my age is unheard of, this town is so youth oriented. I will be competing against people who have been in this town for years, who already have extensive resumes, because of that fact. "But I look really young", so that is great, people say to me. However, I am not here in this town to lie about who I am, and my age. Everyone tells me not to tell my age, including my manager, but I want to tell the truth. Hey, competing against kids for a kids role is not what I am interested in. I want to play mature folks, cause that is what I am, and who I am. No matter what I do, my maturity will shine through my work. So why lie??? I don't know.. I go back in forth from time to time. It is tough. I just want to work, and do projects where I can unleash all this talent I have trapped inside me, ready to burst out! Is this too much to ask for?
My manager said to me "I don't want you playing those soft roles". "Huh" I said, "soft roles meaning what"? Confused by this comment, and listening to a person who represents me beat around the bush. This is a big thing I am finding in LA. Playing or Being Gay is still a little forbidden. When if you look at Television, the gays and gay characters, are taking over the small and big screen. I don't mind playing a "soft role" or a gay role (which is what I'm assuming he meant) . I don't mind at all... Yes I don't want to play a drag queen or big flamboyant person, because I don't want to be doomed to being typed cast like that the rest of my life. What is wrong with playing gay? There are all different types of gay. I admit I would prefer to play straight, or a neutral role, because that is all I played all my life. I love being an actor, because I get to use myself, every side of myself, drawing from me, and who I am, and playing it as best as I can. Becoming someone else, but always using my many crazy selves as the outline . If that makes any sense? I have to get in where I fit in, and if playing "soft" roles get me in the door, bring it on!!!!
At the end of the day, I have faith in GOD, and I know that I am supposed to be here right now typing this blog entry to the world. I am supposed to be honest, and believe in myself. I know what my heart wants more then anything in the world. I trust in my faith, and my spirit. I trained and worked so hard for this, and I deserve a shot just like anyone else. Am I Crazy? Yes, you have to be crazy to pack up your bags and do what I am doing. I AM HERE PEOPLE, and I Am Not Ready To Give Up Just Yet!
Let's try something new in Hollywood, let's tell the truth, therefore I will end this entry with a declaration. I, J.R. Whittington, legally known as James Ricardo Whittington, I am a 37 year old, African American, Homosexual, Christian who moved to LA! Up Against All Odds!
My manager brought me into his office, to show me the breakdowns, and what he gets from week to week. Did you know that in the actors breakdowns that come out weekly, that most the job descriptions is Caucasian male? I scrolled through about 80 posts in the breakdowns for actors. I found a total of 10 jobs for an African American Male, and even less for women, and less for Asian or Hispanic people. WOW! Reality check right there. Contrary to most peoples beliefs, Many friends have said to me, "It is easier when you are ethnic"! WRONG! WRONG! WRONG! We might have less competition, but we still in the year 2013 have way less work. My manager proved this fact to me. Which means, I might be waiting a long time for my dream gig to come true.....
Then there is the fact that I not only look African American, that I am a mixed male. This is just like New York City, some projects I wasn't black enough to be in... (for example Hairspray).. Some times this worked in my favor. I played a Puerto Rican, and even making my Broadway debut playing Indian in "Bombay Dreams". Most times I was rejected because not Latin enough, not black enough, not mixed enough. This problem is world wide though, every actor goes through this, but I feel it is heightened in my case. It would depend on the project, trying to find out where I fit in, because of the complexion of my skin. Interesting huh? In film it is even worse, cause the camera is in your face, and you have to read that race asap. BUT I AM A BLACK BOY! I PROMISE! :-)
My age continues to come up in this town, and the fact that I am not a very young man. Yes, this sets me back even more. To move to LA at my age is unheard of, this town is so youth oriented. I will be competing against people who have been in this town for years, who already have extensive resumes, because of that fact. "But I look really young", so that is great, people say to me. However, I am not here in this town to lie about who I am, and my age. Everyone tells me not to tell my age, including my manager, but I want to tell the truth. Hey, competing against kids for a kids role is not what I am interested in. I want to play mature folks, cause that is what I am, and who I am. No matter what I do, my maturity will shine through my work. So why lie??? I don't know.. I go back in forth from time to time. It is tough. I just want to work, and do projects where I can unleash all this talent I have trapped inside me, ready to burst out! Is this too much to ask for?
My manager said to me "I don't want you playing those soft roles". "Huh" I said, "soft roles meaning what"? Confused by this comment, and listening to a person who represents me beat around the bush. This is a big thing I am finding in LA. Playing or Being Gay is still a little forbidden. When if you look at Television, the gays and gay characters, are taking over the small and big screen. I don't mind playing a "soft role" or a gay role (which is what I'm assuming he meant) . I don't mind at all... Yes I don't want to play a drag queen or big flamboyant person, because I don't want to be doomed to being typed cast like that the rest of my life. What is wrong with playing gay? There are all different types of gay. I admit I would prefer to play straight, or a neutral role, because that is all I played all my life. I love being an actor, because I get to use myself, every side of myself, drawing from me, and who I am, and playing it as best as I can. Becoming someone else, but always using my many crazy selves as the outline . If that makes any sense? I have to get in where I fit in, and if playing "soft" roles get me in the door, bring it on!!!!
At the end of the day, I have faith in GOD, and I know that I am supposed to be here right now typing this blog entry to the world. I am supposed to be honest, and believe in myself. I know what my heart wants more then anything in the world. I trust in my faith, and my spirit. I trained and worked so hard for this, and I deserve a shot just like anyone else. Am I Crazy? Yes, you have to be crazy to pack up your bags and do what I am doing. I AM HERE PEOPLE, and I Am Not Ready To Give Up Just Yet!
Let's try something new in Hollywood, let's tell the truth, therefore I will end this entry with a declaration. I, J.R. Whittington, legally known as James Ricardo Whittington, I am a 37 year old, African American, Homosexual, Christian who moved to LA! Up Against All Odds!
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
Manager/ Reel/ New Headshots
I am here in Los Angeles California, and I am living in a very cute area called North Hollywood. I love my area as it is full of lots of theaters, cafes, restaurants, and trendy people. I can walk to grocery store, and any little essentials I need I can get to by foot. As a New Yorker I love to walk, to not have to drive everywhere makes me happy. However, LA you have to have a car, so I leased a cute little 2013 Toyota Yaris! My apartment is pretty empty, but I do have all my essential furniture, it is the extras that make it more "homey", that I need to buy. You also need money to buy those extras, but I spent so much on my car, furniture, headshots, etc. That the cute pictures and paintings, wine rack, and things I want-- but don't need--will have to wait.
My career is important to me, and I prayed to GOD when I had meetings with Managers--to manager my non existent acting career--that I would have a sign from him (GOD). I chose the manager route because I felt at this point in my career, I need someone who is going to push for me. Not just an agent where I am just another number. I met with some people, and actually some management teams that sounded interested flaked out on me. What? Flaky Manager? No Thanks! Wow, this L.A. scene is sure different then New York. These people are way more relaxed, but in a weird way. Maybe New York City, has me too strong, with non relaxed all business, and no play mentality. As I attempt to get more relaxed and go with the flow to fit in with this L.A. crowd. I realized that I need to learn to adapt to this new lifestyle, while staying true to myself. J.R. breathe for a moment, get back on track. The manager who showed the most interest was a man named Marcus Fishman, he works for Advanced Talent Management in Glendale CA. He was very cool, a little head strong for my taste, but as I sat in his office, I waited for my sign from GOD. He said "This is weird but I am going to do something that I wouldn't usually do on first meeting". He called General Hospital and said "Hey you guys are looking for an African American boy, and I have one here in my office that you should see". This man Marcus Fishman didn't even see my work, and he was pushing for me on instinct. This was my sign from GOD, and I signed with Marcus shortly after that.
Now the work begins, I needed a new headshot, as all my old headshots make me look like a sexy model. This is not who I am going to play on t.v. Headshots in NYC became unimportant to me, cause all the casting people there know me, and respected my work. Here in LA, I need that shot that will get me through the door, and that shot which would portray me in the light I want to be portrayed. "You gotta have a gimmick if you wanna get ahead" from the musical Gypsy. This song rang true to my life, in search of doing honest work, I knew that I had to portray myself and play myself in the begin of my career just to get into the door. Who am I? A very well dressed, intellectual black male, with a big heart, but can be mysterious and dark at times. How do I put this in a photo? Where do I see myself? The WB would love me, shows like Gossip Girl perfect. I believe Shonda Rhimes would love me as well, Scandal and Greys Anatomy are not only my dream shows, but they are actually places that I would really fit in, with my style of acting and my look. I also think I can be the nerdy yet cute, (LOL) CSI tech guy. And where I truly fit in is a soap opera or lifetime movie (hey they are frowned upon, but I will take the gig)! Knowing all this was a big help with me picking my pictures.
My reel is done, but I am not happy with it, as it comes off very one sided and little over acted. Hey I am learning the film medium. Everyday, I am figuring out that on stage you have to be big to reach all these people at the top balcony. The film medium is completely different, as I have to play it minimally. The technique and, the true core of the work is still the same. I am a very trained actor, and I have studied many techniques. Meisner is my favorite at the moment, but I take from many different techniques to come up with my own that works for me. I guess as time goes by and when I book stuff.... I can add it to my reel, maybe one day I will have a reel I like... But I am a work in progress...
My career is important to me, and I prayed to GOD when I had meetings with Managers--to manager my non existent acting career--that I would have a sign from him (GOD). I chose the manager route because I felt at this point in my career, I need someone who is going to push for me. Not just an agent where I am just another number. I met with some people, and actually some management teams that sounded interested flaked out on me. What? Flaky Manager? No Thanks! Wow, this L.A. scene is sure different then New York. These people are way more relaxed, but in a weird way. Maybe New York City, has me too strong, with non relaxed all business, and no play mentality. As I attempt to get more relaxed and go with the flow to fit in with this L.A. crowd. I realized that I need to learn to adapt to this new lifestyle, while staying true to myself. J.R. breathe for a moment, get back on track. The manager who showed the most interest was a man named Marcus Fishman, he works for Advanced Talent Management in Glendale CA. He was very cool, a little head strong for my taste, but as I sat in his office, I waited for my sign from GOD. He said "This is weird but I am going to do something that I wouldn't usually do on first meeting". He called General Hospital and said "Hey you guys are looking for an African American boy, and I have one here in my office that you should see". This man Marcus Fishman didn't even see my work, and he was pushing for me on instinct. This was my sign from GOD, and I signed with Marcus shortly after that.
Now the work begins, I needed a new headshot, as all my old headshots make me look like a sexy model. This is not who I am going to play on t.v. Headshots in NYC became unimportant to me, cause all the casting people there know me, and respected my work. Here in LA, I need that shot that will get me through the door, and that shot which would portray me in the light I want to be portrayed. "You gotta have a gimmick if you wanna get ahead" from the musical Gypsy. This song rang true to my life, in search of doing honest work, I knew that I had to portray myself and play myself in the begin of my career just to get into the door. Who am I? A very well dressed, intellectual black male, with a big heart, but can be mysterious and dark at times. How do I put this in a photo? Where do I see myself? The WB would love me, shows like Gossip Girl perfect. I believe Shonda Rhimes would love me as well, Scandal and Greys Anatomy are not only my dream shows, but they are actually places that I would really fit in, with my style of acting and my look. I also think I can be the nerdy yet cute, (LOL) CSI tech guy. And where I truly fit in is a soap opera or lifetime movie (hey they are frowned upon, but I will take the gig)! Knowing all this was a big help with me picking my pictures.
My reel is done, but I am not happy with it, as it comes off very one sided and little over acted. Hey I am learning the film medium. Everyday, I am figuring out that on stage you have to be big to reach all these people at the top balcony. The film medium is completely different, as I have to play it minimally. The technique and, the true core of the work is still the same. I am a very trained actor, and I have studied many techniques. Meisner is my favorite at the moment, but I take from many different techniques to come up with my own that works for me. I guess as time goes by and when I book stuff.... I can add it to my reel, maybe one day I will have a reel I like... But I am a work in progress...
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WELCOME TO MY WORLD
I am an actor, but I began my career singing and dancing for a living. I studied theater at the prestigious Boston Conservatory of Music, and began a journey at becoming a triple threat (Singer, Dancer, Actor). My biggest dream was to get a Broadway show. That dream came true when I made my Broadway debut in the musical "Bombay Dreams"! I have worked in theater non-stop for the past 16 years, and have done many, many musicals. Traveled from Germany, National tours of the U.S., to Vegas, and Canada. I have had a blessed career thus far. This blog will document my life as I take a huge leap of faith, and attempt a T.V. and film career in Los Angeles California. I will document my auditions, my ups, my downs, my faith, my passions, my sweat, my tears, my life. This is going to be a new challenge. My blog will be the ultimate reality serious, will I make it? Will I give up? Will my dreams come true? Am I crazy? What would a person do for love? This is the story of an actor, who loves what he does, who is not in it for fame, who is all about the work. This is my story, and I hope you enjoy the ride....
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