Break Time

I am taking a break from the business, as I can't afford to do workshops right now.  My pocket books are screaming at me, and daddy needs to eat.  Before you know it will be the holidays and no work anyway...  This is hard for me to do, but ever since I called a short time out, I feel my soul lift.  The pressures of the business can give me anxiety that sometimes my soul needs a boost.  I am putting all my focus on teaching, giving back and inspiring my class.  I love teaching so much, but it does not fulfill me like being an artist on stage or screen.  I totally am letting GOD take the wheel, and I feel some big changes coming soon.  I am currently, working on yet another secret project, and I am praying that this works out.  I think this is the path I am supposed to go on, I hear GOD loudly on this one.  As I pray I am trying to do better at listening. I will be back pounding the pavement in the new year, energized and ready to hit it hard.  I am taking the time to reflect and find out where I am supposed to turn.  For the first time I let show business beat me down, but I will not give up without a fight.  I am not finished with you!!!!!  Love to all, please continue to lift me up in prayer.

Please Turn The Light On!

Blogger friends if you ever heard the term "the struggle is real", then you completely understand my life!  I have been dealing with the word "no" for about three months now, in this crazy industry that we call acting...  More then usually for me, and I have fallen into a world of darkness.  Insecurities, set in, and the word I hate "FEAR" wails up into my soul and belly.  This business is hard, and getting people to believe in what you trained all your life for can be daunting at times.  I have casting directors telling me (In Los Angeles Style) how amazing I am, but not casting me in a single thing.  It gets hard to trust your work and trust yourself.  Sometimes I want to quit,  and give up.  The problem is there is nothing else I would rather do, nothing else that makes me whole, nothing else that feels right, nothing else that exudes my body with love like acting.  I can't quit, and now I will just pray that my breakthrough is around the corner.  Continue to keep working on my craft, and come out into the light.  I am broken, but at the point of saying, "Jesus take the wheel".  I will walk with GOD and let him lead my path as I can't do this alone.  Thanks for your continued prayers blogger family.  I hope the next time I write it will be with better feelings toward my art and craft.  LOVE TO ALL!